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I was wrong by Arborish I was wrong by Arborish
I know this is kind of odd, but I JUST saw an artist beating themselves up in a journal about how much they hated their art, before I found one of my older sketchbooks in my closet not even an hour later.

I hate seeing artists who don't understand that art isn't perfect. It is amazing and fun and yourself. I hated myself, and I hated my art when I was young. It took some pretty serious growing up before I started to like me. and I do like my art now. I love doing it. It makes me happy. I wish I could just grab the people who are so busy being miserable over not being perfect that they're missing out on all the fun, and shake them. Stop being so angry.

I'll scrap this later, I just wanted to share, I suppose.
If you're having trouble reading the text:

"Five AM, and I'm sitting on the floor of my closet, smiling and thumbing through an ancient and forgotten sketchbook. It is from 2004. The art inside is terrible, truly awful, and it makes me smile and feel so nostalgic over how much I've grown. A lot of the pages are just floating heads before my younger self grew bored and moved onto a fresh page, determined to make this one beautiful and admirable and amazing.

And then there's one page, almost to the end. It has a mess of angry black scribbles, the page still deeply scoured and I can even see where the pencil must have broken. Twice. A small bit of cursive is below it; A note to myself.

I cant draw.
and never will
be able to.

Several pages after this are blank, except for the angry scars that show from my scribble.

I was so angry when I was young, and I hated myself so much. I hated my art. I wanted to be great and perfect, and I wasn't, and it was because I was a failure. I know my younger self believed that note with all her heart, and probably was trying to warn herself away from drawing more.

Another note to myself. From me, right now, to that angry littler me:
You were wrong. You were so wrong.

And thanks for not giving up on us and art."
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L3afkit Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I wrote a note to myself like that...
"I can't draw..." in dark angry letters. But then I smiled and wrote ...yet."
I am practicing and trying ever so hard to improve and continue onwards. But I still get frustrated sometimes. I'm not quite yet satisfied with myself yet. But I'll keep trying :'3
kociaraaa94 Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I sometimes feel like You before.
But this note is inspiring. Very inspiring.


I'm gonna be better, you'll see! x3
JohnandBrittney Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2011
I love this, honestly.
A month ago I did the same and went through the old sketchbooks under my bed and when I flipped through them I was mortified! Back then people used to tell me how good I was so I'd go around showing my teachers, the thought of that made me so embarrassed. But then I looked at a few of my newer journals and I cant help but feel proud.
I was always frustrated with my friend in elementary school because she just had a nack for art and I couldn't get it until around 4th grade when she taught me a few things and I started teaching myself from there. But at one point I was so depressed about it, I stopped for a year. With a little bit of a push from my math teacher I started right back up again. =) I'm happy you didn't stop trying with your art by the way, because if you did I wouldn't have my DM Kumos. lol^^
Shivers96 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2010
Im 14 and even though I consider myself good at art and drawing I know im not the best and its hard to believe in yourself on here because you see all the other artists that are amazing right next to you. I remember when i used to say "i fail" and " I hate my crappy art" but now I realise that I didn't improve until I stopped believing I was terrible beause I wasn't. I was just 13, a kid. How was I meant to be amazing when I was comparing myself to artists that were at least 3 years older than me.
So don't get yourself down if you're not good enough, because the truth is, nobody's perfect and Art isn't perfect.
I remember a great quote from a teacher in primary school, she used to say when we were drawing " Nothing in nature is Straight" and its true really, nobody can produce something perfect in every way so don't get yourself down about something when you can always improve.

Just thought I'd put that out there since Ive been seeing alot of negative attitude about art and alot of us eof the word "fail"

and yes im missing iscribble alot these days :/
Shivers96 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2010
oops i was gonna post that in a journal, anyway
PsykoaktiveFantasi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
awwww :C
cooltiger2007 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
Wow! Most beautiful I have ever reading. Everything about it is so damn true.. I highly believed in people who didn't give up on their artwork even how much they despire it is very luck person. But still this is just so touching me.. I just actually almost cried at where part you said about not giving up.
KiRAWRa Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010
I know exactly how you feel. Younger artists get so angry and discouraged, it's sometimes hard to make them understand that we have ALL been there. I of course am not the best artist, and I'm fully aware I have much room to grow, but it's amazing to look back and see how far you've come. Which is the reason I posted this beauty: [link] LoL
Just to show that all you've gotta do is keep trying C:
Fychan Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2010  Student Interface Designer
Love it. Really.

I can relate to that, but in a different way... When I was young, I was very proud of my art. I really thought it was the best thing on the world and that I was a great artist.
Now I look back at that art and see how bad I used to draw, hahah. And even though I draw much, much better now I feel that I can't draw... Or rather, that I'm unable to ever finish a drawing.

Sometimes we gotta remind ourselves that nothing ever goes exactly the way we want it, and that we don't have to get it right at the first try. This is something I'm trying to relearn, myself.
dewieta-08 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2010
This is so inspiring. Thank you for sharing. :heart:
LuvZ-Art Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2010  Professional Traditional Artist
this is great!!!
nightalive Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I like this. You are amazing. ♥
riloquence Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2010
sheepicorn Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
This is really nice, very inspiring.
fuzzball-de-goof Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
I think everyone feels like this sometimes, and your comments inspired me :)
purplekittykatgal Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i love this!!!!
^_^ i kno i do this too sometimes, i bash my work to make myself work harder but ur rite, sometimes u have to appreciate the idea, its not all i nthe rperfection of hte execution
Prismas Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Student General Artist
This is in my old sketch pages, too. <3

Oh floating heads... they were so amusing to draw xD I think a lot of artists are like this, or were. I remember looking at previous pages and being entirely unimpressed, and turning to a new, wonderfully blank page and thinking "Ok, THIS I will cover with masterpieces..." Of course, I never did. In fact, I still do this some times... xD Only with more patience and less anger haha
Arborish Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
SO MANY FLOATING HEADS. And I drew /tiny/, too, so my single floating head would be like the size of my thumbprint, and for some reason that meant the entire page was a bust and I had to move on~. No wonder I went through my sketchbooks so quickly as a kid. xD
piebutt Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
It's certainly a point that every young artist has to go through, that's for sure! I know I hated everything I drew when I was just have to look past it, stop comparing, and be thankful for your talent. This is something a lot of people need to learn. Confidence is key in a lot of things, especially with art. Although bein' on DA certainly makes it hard! What with all of the amazing artists and all.

A lot of young/frustrated artists could learn a lot from this. : D

Side note: I LOVE finding old sketchbooks. They're kind of the same. Scattered doodles with a crap load of scribbles. Now when I'm frustrated I keep the drawing and just write FFFFF FIIIXXX THIISSSS beside it. xD
Arborish Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
XDD I do that now, too. Drawn out letters and all. "FFFFFIIIXXXX THHIIIISSSSS." I have almost all of my old sketchbooks still, I think. I'm fond of them, in a horrified kind of way. "I WAS SO TERRIBLE, AWWW." and also "What was wrong with me, why didn't I start studying from life SOONER?"
piebutt Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
I make awful speech bubbles and conversations between drawings, too. xD

I have pounds of scrap paper as well as books...But man. Some time it can be just down right amusing to look back. Our younger selves were just so SILLY.
Arborish Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
"Broken. *arrow to arm/leg/bodypart.*" is something that shows up in my sketchbooks fairly often.

It is so true. XD I can REMEMBER hearing that drawing from life was important, and thinking, "No it isn't. It has nothing to do with my style."


I'm really glad I never threw those books out, though. I wasn't a packrat, and did tend to throw stuff away fairly often. I don't know how the sketchbooks escaped the apathy, but I'm glad they did. Now they hide in my closet like a deep dark secret, to be enjoyed when I randomly come across them in the bookshelves.
piebutt Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
My favorite is that my sketches show what I was into at the time. My younger self was such a fuckwit. xD
sAMMIDAwOLF Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
Well, everyone has to start somewhere. My original art binder is full of stuff from 2004 up until 2009 and all the art is so....ugly. I only gave up on trying horses though.

Never, ever give up! :iconimhappyplz: (and never throw out your old work)
ladyvierra Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
I love this. It reminds me of myself at times. I guess it really helps to know that other artists feel the same. Thanks <3
PrepareForImpact Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
This really got through to me :) I know im frustrated with my art a lot, and im always tempted to give up, but i know one day ill be satisfied with it :D

How old were you in 2004 btw?
Arborish Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010
I was fifteen. It actually wasn't that long after this (a year or so) that I finally started learning to like my own art. Not all the time, but I was learning to be happier with it. It's a long painful road into the land of self confidence, haha.
PrepareForImpact Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol thats how old i am now :XD:
Im starting to like some of my art now, though i still get REALLY frustrated with it :noes:
Though im getting more motivated to learn new anatomy, and practice mre :)
Obaba Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Some people think that that whenever they put pen to paper, that a masterpiece will emerge from their hand. Think about it: My brother once said every artist has the ability to take what does not exist anywhere in the world,...hell, the universe, from their mind and create it physically to share with others. Art is beautiful in all sorts of ways other than visual . Asking for perfection in that interpretation takes not only discipline of the body, but the mind as well.
Over the years, your hands will learn how to pluck from the chaos of the human mind a moment of calm or maybe even fully animated epic.

The most important thing I learned is to not become comfortable with just drawing one thing. Think of your photos if only half your picture developed. Once you become comfortable, move on to the next challenge.
You truly have a gifted eye in your photography. Glorious stuff. You have so much time to grow. Enjoy the learning process and it will yield results.
KattPhace72 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
love it; pure genius :)
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